This might be kind of long but I need to get a few things off my chest. As most know I battle with fibromyalgia. Found out about it two years next month. Before I found out about I was very angry inside.
I was the type of Christian who would battle people just to get my ego going. I would fight and I would tell people off and I would be so bitter inside. I was mad cause people all around me where getting help.
Before I found out about my fibro I could not understand what was always happing to me. I would get in a state of anger and pain. I would feel like my flesh was being ripped off my body. I felt hot all over all the time and I was aching all over. I got so used to it though that I would sometimes ignore it until small out burst would happen. You know the old saying, ‘Anger is like cancer.’ That saying was very true. I had become so bitter inside it was like cancer. Tipping away at my soul everyday.
I would get so up set cause I would notice my mom and wife we’re getting help all the time. I felt like I was drowning and I could not be saved. I became a bitter Christian as well. I would get so up set at others blessings and how for some everything became so easy while I was struggling. I could not understand why I felt that way. I was losing my very Faith in God.
I was going down a dark road. My marriage was falling apart. Then something amazing happen. I found out I had fibro. I found out what was wrong. I went from being bitter to being in pain all the time. I had to leave my job and what should of destroy me was really preparing me for something wonderful.
A year ago we move to another town. We help my father in law with his complex. Eight apartments. It is kind of out in the country. I was used to being a city boy. But here I was in the country. It took me a while to enjoy myself.
Last night God showed me how getting sick and moving out here helped save my marriage. I know what you are thinking, sickness? How so? Think about it for a second. Before it happen I was bitter inside. I was falling away from God. Now I am so happy and peaceful inside I have become a better husband for my wife. Getting fibro has helped saved my marriage.
What also helped save it was loving myself. Letting go of the let downs and being contend with who I am today. That is the key to happiness. Being content with who and where you are.
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